MORNING AFTER

O my God - what have I done,
where are you my lover, who is beside me that one?
I remember slowly the happenings of last night,
I just let it happen without any emotional fight.

I hungered for love, it's long ago since you've been here,
he caught his chance, right time he was so dear.
I closed my eyes while my longing went far away,
but it's really impossible myself to betray.

Last night things not even were nice behind my door,
I wish he would disappear - I don't like to see him anymore.
Every breath made me sick when I got back on my feet,
because this evil smell of betray and deceit.

Even showering for hours, couldn't take it away,
after washing the bedsheets I still smelt the betray.
Panically I teared off all windows and doors,
no matter about the chance an influence to force.

I prayed this ugly smell finally to disappear 
lit lots of candles and sprayed perfume everywhere,
It really took a long time to breathe again free,
but I still have the ugly feeling in me.

I wish I could turn back the time at the clock,
and next time the ability to be strong as a rock.
I'm just your lover, alone and free
but to stay true doesn't need any document for me.

© Liane Porger